Tuesday

I was without the internet for most of the day and got way too much done. So, the writing is on the wall? Lots of sorting and straightening of my once again mess of a desk.

Julia had a rough day at school, and considering that she has had a number of rough days at home and at church on Sunday, I was not surprised. I was reading that there can be a withdrawal from gluten and casin and we are about midway through the 3-month time that it takes gluten to clear from the body, this could be a reason for the behavior.

Julia has also had such an increase in adult stimulation in the last few weeks that she might be responding to that in an unfavorable way. Today, for example, she is in school from 7:30 to 2:30, and then therapy from 3:30 to 7:30. Twelve hours of education or interaction with an hour break for some mama cuddling.

David is hoping the I find a shrink who will be willing to start some sort of drug therapy. I am looking for a DAN doctor who will adjust her diet, give her supplements, and then consider some drugs. And right now, the DAN doc would not be covered by insurance.

Everyone has been so excited about Julia's good behavior -- so have I! -- and the resurfacing of bad behavior -- refusal to do what she is told, throwing things, hitting and kicking, refusing to take a time out in school -- is difficult to see again. We all want her to get better, be healed, be closer to a NT kid. We want her to fit in somehow, somewhere.

But here it is again.

She is also talking a mile a minute. A bigger vocabulary and longer sentences, and all the time. And right now, after 12 hours of her day, she is still talking and has not slowed down one bit. No mellowing at all.

Gosh, if I could only see where she can get to and how to get to that place, I'd do it all. Instead, sometimes it feels like such a crap shoot and who knows what is working. Then again, the step back has to come every so often.