Julia just said this. She is playing with something that looks like an ark, putting many small dinosaurs into it. And a few big ones. Is the Flood story so universal that even a child who is not exposed to it intuit it somehow? Of course, we do read a lot of stories and there is lots of adventures on boats and at sea.
I was surfing and reading travel notes from various friends on Facebook and feeling the tug of travel. Drawn to the journey. Yes, indeed. I imagine that if I did not have Julia to raise that I would rent this house out and go traveling -- Italy, Australia, Vietnam, China, Cambodia, England, Scotland, Bolivia, Peru. Of course, it would not be that easy. Truth be told, if I did not have Julia, I would not be collecting widow with a minor child social security, and without that money coming in, I would be hard pressed to even keep the house, let alone rent it. I would be scrambling for work or depleting my investments that I am bound and determined to live on for a very long time.
But another truth is that if I did not have Julia, life would be so different that I can't say where I would be right now. Like pulling the crucial piece out of a Janga tower -- the tower impossible and unimaginable without it. And she is woven into the fabric of my being.
Still, I take that mental break at times from wondering and worrying and teasing out ideas for our future to imagine a simpler future, alone and unencumbered, in which I spend time as an independent woman of means drawn to the journey.