In general, I am feeling more myself. Also, have more energy. Still, gulps of time when I have no ambition for any part of life. Those are hard. Especially with Julia. Feeling that I am not doing my best for Julia.
Uncertain with the extent of my uncertainties. Adventuring can make me itch behind the knees. Slight paranoia the I can keep us afloat -- no reason but fright.
Hard to not have a partner. Hard to imagine another partner.
And gosh, who signed me up for single parenting?
I think I need someone to clean my house.
I miss David. Missing sharing excitement. Missing every little thing. Especially the very little things.