21 September 2010

You know, I am fine for awhile, a few days, even a week, and then I have to drop out and be with myself for awhile. This is getting harder to do with my LEND class and PTO in full swing.

Took yesterday completely off from the world and worked on sorting pictures and putting things away. It was good although there is still a mess on the dining room floor which I may have to leave until next week. The thing that brought me to tears was a card from David -- yes, I save cards -- that had a quote from Danny Kaye on the front (the big crush of my youth) and a short message from David inside. It said "You can do it all." It seemed to come from somewhere just to me yesterday. I am grateful for the encouragement.

I worry about the future. Where will those messages come from? That unconditional support that I really need. And I agree that I need to concentrate on today, not some fuzzy future (thanks, Robin).

So, I will be grateful for today, and for the message I found yesterday. I needed it.

And another day passed.

5 comments:

Traci said...

The more time that goes by, the more days you're able to check off the calendar, the more I realize that I have no idea what it's like to be you right now. I have no idea what losing a husband feels like.

It does seem that you're doing the only thing you can do though; you get up and you put one foot in front of the other - every single day. And those are huge accomplishments.

I sure do pray for peaceful days for you, my friend.

Letting you know that I'm over here in the corner quietly reading/listening and wishing this were easier for you.

Love, Traci

Traci said...

The more time that goes by, the more days you're able to check off the calendar, the more I realize that I have no idea what it's like to be you right now. I have no idea what losing a husband feels like.

It does seem that you're doing the only thing you can do though; you get up and you put one foot in front of the other - every single day. And those are huge accomplishments.

I sure do pray for peaceful days for you, my friend.

Letting you know that I'm over here in the corner quietly reading/listening and wishing this were easier for you.

Love, Traci

Snickerdoodle said...

One.Day.At.A.Time.

Best,
Snick :)

Skyrider said...

Suzanne, thank you for finding the time to "go inside" and take care of yourself. You may find that these supportive messages guide you more and more.

It is only the body that dies; the soul is immortal. Our loved ones are with us even if the body cannot be seen.

You are a brave, beloved prayer magnet.

Anonymous said...

Look deep in your heart and you will find David. He will always send you the messages but you have to know were to go to find them. That will take a little time. But David is still there. Just keep looking. Believe me.

All my love,
Carol